25 & Confused

Hi, I’m Kailee.

Today, I turn twenty-five.

And I’m confused.

Who would have known that 20 years later, I would still be asking myself the same question. What do I want to be when I grow up?

Over the years, the answer has changed from taxi driver, event planner and professional athlete. So far none of which have come true. Now, as I sit here, a quarter of a century in age, I’m confused as to why I haven’t yet figured it out.

I have always been jealous of doctors, dentists and veterinarians. It seems like most times they have always known what they want to do. However, on a recent medical mission, I learned that several nurses and doctors of all ages were wondering the same question.

So, while I still don’t know the answer, this last year has genuinely led me closer to knowing where I see myself going, what’s important to me, and who I do NOT want to be.

To recap: Since last February, I quit my full-time job. In return, I started three “part-time” roles working for sports organizations that I love. I traveled often to places like Europe, Central America and numerous places throughout the states. And, I have worked toward my master’s degree in communications, which will be complete in May.

These experiences have been wonderful, they somehow have left me more confused. Here’s why;

I don’t want to settle. Some people are quite content at a desk, while others are not (like me). Discover which one best suits you and don’t settle for anything else. Often, too many people go through the motions of a mundane role which they could care less about. Please, don’t settle. You and employer will be so much better off.

I’ve learned that passion pays. We have all been encouraged to do what we love. They have told us to “find something we love doing and never work a day in our lives.” This is true. Some may just need a little longer to find out what that is. Learning what wakes you up each morning allows you to dedicate more time and energy into just that. Even if it’s the most unconventional job, persistency is key.

I’m more open to new opportunities. There is difference between a career stepping stone and a detour. Not every role will lead us to the next level career, so to speak. However, it may lead you away from a path you were never meant to go down. It’s ok to think you’re heading in one direction and end up going another. Life is about trial and error.

I’ve learned to make time for myself. No matter if you work a typical 9-5 job, or work irregular hours (like in sports), taking care of yourself should still be your first priority. One of the best pieces of advice I have ever received is that we cannot fully take care of others before taking care of ourselves. Your mind, body, and soul will thank you.

So, do you find yourself asking the same question? That’s ok! Take new chances and don’t be afraid to explore. Trust me, you’re not the only one still confused.

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